What to buy into? That is entirely up to you. It is your life. You live it as you see fit and no one can tell you otherwise. No one can tell you what to think. No one else has to wake up with your face but you so live your life no one else’s.
The question is what can you think? What do you believe? What are you going to do that next moment? Do you just exist or do you live your life? Do you feel you’ve made the most of it? How often do you listen to that voice inside of you? Do you even care to think past what are you hungry for next meal? Do you feel like you are at a self help seminar yet?
I’ve observed and have been reminded that folks don’t want to think about much. I called these folks cattle and got my head nearly chewed off by a close friend. Deservedly so by the way, but my point for saying that statement was simple. Why can’t folks think and really see what is around them? Do people feel that helpless to change anything in their lives? Do people really think that they have no power to do something different?
What do I see so different from everyone else? Life, my friends. Why this existence, what is the reason for mortality, what is the reason for my soul existing inside this cocoon of a mortal shell? I recall asking these questions when I was lying in bed one night just past age 11 when I began reasoning out that the universe or space goes on for infinity. It scared the shit out of me! Why? Up until then my life was very linear. I went from point A to B relatively simple. I didn’t think much about it. I wake up, I get through school, have summers off, graduate either figure out a way to get to college or take a nine to five like my brothers. Get married someday have kids grow old at my job after raising the kids etc you get the picture. Then that freaking concept hits that space just keeps going. What? Like forever? Everything around me has a life expectancy? Planets, plutonium, even a sun, but space keeps going on? WTF? That blew my mind and frightens the shit out me. I can figure it goes to here, no, here, no how about up to here. ‘No Jim it isn’t linear.’ A voice looms in my head. ‘It is infinite just like your soul.’ Oh crap! At eleven what do you do with that?
That is when I went on a life ‘walk about’. I ditched the crowd I ran with, stayed in my own ‘hundred acre wood’, and learned how life worked on my own terms and asked many questions for about five years. Got my own answers and questioned everything. Everything! I spent the next ten years proving the answers worked and the next ten fine tuning them.
As I went through life all the new age, alternative wellness, unity light, whatever everyone wants to dub it today came into my life, and my wife will attest to it, I was thinking and living these concepts long before it came out into the media. I’m not tooting my horn I’m pointing out ANYONE can come up with their own answers if you just take some time and listen to that voice inside. Some call it a conscience, soul, even God. God gave us all a way to hear His word. We just choose to tune it out with a variety of technology, people, whatever. Some just flat out run away from it. The inner truth is there and it is always right. You know when you are lying to yourself and this works the same for everyone no one is exempt! No one ever said doing what is going to help you was going to be the easy choice to make either. When you first start putting your life back together you have to make rough, challenging, difficult choices. The truth you find there is the truth that sets you free.
That person you have to live with everyday, you know the one you wake up and look at in the mirror is the one who’ll benefit from you making the healthy choices. And when that person is happy you’ll find yourself smiling for no reason at all and that is not an awful thing to have in your life. What I’m saying here isn’t prophetic or even new. What I’m saying here is there is no magic bullet no magic pill or place to journey to or someone to hand your money to, to get what you already own. Yourself. Make the time to get to know that person and ask yourself the questions I started out with and be willing to seek the answers if they require you to because the biggest question I’m still finding out today is why did my soul want to be here in this body on this planet etc? Why even bother?
Take a moment and just realize to yourself what is inside you. Close your eyes and wonder at the thought you are having right at this moment. Ask yourself why am I reading this? Why do I care? What am I going to do after I finish with this and why? The reasons may implore you to learn more about what thrills you or sends you on a journey to learn more about what the universe wants you to learn and do. There isn’t any particular way you have to proceed or place you have to journey to and no one can do it for you. Get off your ass and you take the steps to finish this journey. The universe will lead you around by the nose if you let it and that is connecting to the source of what makes us tick as a mortal being. One piece of wisdom I do share with others is God has you right where He wants you at all times.
Disclaimer time! No if you do these things that I’ve discussed in this blog you’re life may or may not be great I cannot guarantee anything. I do not have a crystal ball that sees into your future nor do I give a rat’s behind how you so choose to live your life. I remind IT IS YOUR LIFE. You own it there is no money back guarantee for it, ask your maker. I pray or bless that you choose to live it in a way that brings you bliss and or happiness. If you are already doing all of this GREAT keep it up! Consider this a refresher. It is a sad fact that due to lawyers I have to even think up a statement as silly as this.
Lastly why am I saying this? Why bother? Because I refuse to believe that a mortal human being such as yourself cannot think any higher than past your last meal. You are not cattle. My desire is to get people to just ask out loud the questions and respond to the overall bigger thing that is going on around us. I do not believe you don’t care and cannot fathom why you don’t give a rat’s behind why you are here now.
I have been told there are few like me (some might be saying at this point thank God) and that my kind are practically alone in this world. Maybe that is true and maybe I am doomed that way. I do not know. I nearly gave up on humanity as a whole. I became so down trodden a few years back that I nearly threw up my hands up and said, “You know what fuck em’. If they want to be mindless cattle then be exactly that. Who am I to take your bliss of ignorance away from you.” Then something happened in my life that spun me around on my heel and made me speak out loud again. That is another story I’ll share another day. Until then think past what you see on the surface and ask the bigger questions because really all that mundane stuff you experience mostly throughout your day (as annoying and or as great as you may perceive it) isn’t the bigger picture. The answers that show up because you asked the questions may change you in a way you never saw coming.
